The More I See, the Less I Know
I feel as though I’ve overcome so many obstacles with the women’s
soymilk cooperative that I could be an Olympic hurdler right now. And the challenges
continue…
For
the past month, the cooperative has been in a state of flux. We sadly lost our
store before I left for Rome, when the owners of the building wanted to charge
us 30,000 francs in rent per month after previously agreeing we could use the
building for free (we only make 15,000 francs in profit a month, and they
refused to negotiate). I was pretty bummed about it: the store was a gathering
place where the community could come together. We had a steady stream of
customers, and I loved interacting with them. But we had to accept it and move
on.
For
the past month, we’ve been looking into selling the soymilk to nearby schools
that have a lunch program. The soymilk is the same price as tea (100 francs a
cup), which many of the schools already give to their students, and cheaper
than cow’s milk (300-400 francs a cup), which many of the schools want to give
to their students but they can’t afford it.
Challenge
number two billion in this project came a couple weeks ago when one of the nearby schools’
lunch program directors—I’ll call him Theophile--- asked if we could donate
some soymilk for his students to try, and then if they liked it, he would give
us a contract and buy the soymilk every week. There are 250 secondary school
students, so we were very excited about the prospects. I discussed it with my
two counterparts, and we agreed that the women would make 60 liters of the
soymilk for free to give to the students as a trial-run. So we made the soymilk
and lugged it all over to the school—about 45 minutes walking--- to give to the
students.
The students really loved it, and I
came back to the health center excited that we would soon gain a weekly contract
with the school. My counterparts exchanged uneasy glances, and one explained
that Theophile is really untrustworthy. He had ordered a bunch of cow’s milk
from the health center, and then refused to pay. Another time, Theophile
ordered several kilos of vegetables from the health center’s garden, and after
they were picked, refused to honor their contract. Sure enough, when I called
Theophile to secure the soymilk contract, he backed out. I was a upset that no one told
me this man was untrustworthy in our meeting before we donated 60 LITERS of soymilk to them, but we did the only
thing we could do: move on, again.
My brother Paul helping us carry soymilk |
It
has become more and more apparent to me in the past few months that my vision
of the cooperative is very different from that of my counterparts. My two counterparts,
I think, see the women's soymilk cooperative as more of a charity than a social enterprise. Rather
than using the cooperative as a sustainable business to provide benefits to its
members that will continue after I’ve left, my coworkers keep pushing to give the
soymilk away for free, or just to give the
soybeans away to members of the community.
I don’t know if this difference is coming from my American, more
business-minded mentality (and I’m saying this having studied political science
and peace studies in college!) or the fact that so often international
non-profits and NGOs foster a culture of dependency by donating goods and materials
with no strings attached, but it’s so, so hard for me to swallow. I feel like
I’m trying to do what’s best in the long term: giving people jobs rather than
handouts, fostering a business that can operate without me for years to come
rather than giving out soymilk for free to people that need it now, but that
will quickly dry up in only a few months without more donations, leaving people in the same positions they were in before.
So
I’m left again with this terribly confused feeling: in many ways, I feel that
the cooperative has been doing great things. We’ve done community soymilk demonstrations that have educated over 1,000 parents on soymilk making and nutrition,
lifted every cooperative member’s child out of the red (extremely malnourished) zone,
delivered a nutrient-rich product to a population frequently lacking a cheap
source of protein and iron, and provided the women with a source of income (the
pigs). The women are committed to the project and often walk two or three hours
one-way to make the soymilk. But it kills me that there is this tension between
what my counterparts want and where I see the project going. They are an
integral part of my work here, and I deeply respect them. I am worried
that if I continue with my vision of the project, I will burn bridges with one
or both of them, which is obviously something I want to avoid at all costs.
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